My 10 year high school reunion is coming up this summer and as of late I have been reminiscing. As I look back at not only the last 10 years but the last 28 I see just how much I have changed.

When I was little I wanted to be a pop star. I’m sure at one point I wanted to be a princess just like my oldest, but I don’t remember that. What I remember is have one of those recorders with the microphone that you could sing into. I used it ALL the time. When I was a teenager my brother found some of those tapes and I was SO embarrassed. Now I kind of wish I had them so I could share them with my daughters.

Then, in third grade, I started acting. We did a play at school and at church we did a musical. I fell in love. Especially with musicals. I could act and sing. In middle school we did a musical every year. Then I got to high school and my love of theater took off, there was just so much there. Still at that point music was my first love. Until I met CB.

The day I met CB I knew I wanted to be a mother. I’m pretty sure I was 16 but I might have been 15, which would make her a teenager! CB was a surprise to her family. They already had two pre-teen girls and hadn’t planned on having anymore. I was so excited though because I loved the other girls and couldn’t wait to meet the baby. She changed my life though very few people ever knew how much.

Though I knew in my heart my true path I decided that it would be smart to go to college and further my education. Part of that decision was that I had nothing else going for me. I mean, it’s hard to be a mom when you don’t have a man. (I know differently now, but I was 18.)

So for two years I focused and worked hard. Then J came back into my life and I knew where my heart truly lied.

Now, when I look in the mirror I don’t see a world that is a fairy tale, I see reality.

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